Changes

Has this year has changed me?The affirmative may be misleadingAs I am just trying to start healingFrom being unfairly broken My heart was shatteredShattered to pieces I may never be able to fit together againAnd I have chosen to acknowledge their stateWhile other pieces have too, surrendered to their fate So maybe I am being…

Does my body needs its soul?

Wild… isn’t it?That we aren’t really in control of ourselves…Or are we?I can’t simply will myself to sleep for 12 hours…The way a robot would To always be happyTo never get angryTo never be sadTo never be in painThough some may argue that we can Wouldn’t it be amazing to just do that?It’s so weird…

Recherché…This mind of mine

My thoughts roam in coloured felted inks Ancient calligraphy They could be respected: Picasso’s paintings Or ridiculed: a one year old’s masterpiece. Interludes take me away to random daydream zones: Excerpts of chemical structures Illogical solutions to a chemist’s questions Nature’s gorgeous handiwork Dangerous ‘what if’ loves All in all a lil’ too recherché for…

Red Labyrinth

Its so hard to be stillWith what I think feels like homeNot too much, not too littleIt’s here and sometimes it isn’t How do I know when I don’t want to know?How do I leave when I don’t want to go?How do I stay when I don’t know why?What do I say when I refuse…

Longing

I’m not fond of loneliness Though I constantly feel the need to be alone I’m unclear where they coincide My heart and my head unable to atone I enjoy being engulfed by love A peaceful love An unquestionable love An unquenchable love It seems unnatural to go looking for it I want it to find…

Good Vibes

We drag our bodies beneath us The weight of our existence The weight of our responsibilities The weight of our relationships Struggling to find ourselves We yearn for peace We yearn for love We yearn for hope This world can take so much We lose faith We lose trust We lose those we love Yet…

Unknown to you

Feelings of confusion Warning signs I suppose It should have been quite obvious Instead I’d like to propose It’s completely out of character Absolutely nonsensical Merely one of my latest obsessions As we are a bit too similar The things I do to others You do to me I should have known it was coming…

Love and Unconditionality_a weird concept

Please reaasure my mind that I’m not the only one who sits and thinks too much about these things. I really want to start with the thing that bugs me most about love: The idea that this thing should be unconditional Does not seem practical in this world. To be fair, in its purest form,…

This Soup of Feelings and Humans

Why do I feel so deeply Things I would prefer not to I’d enjoy hiding my feelings I’d like for them to stay in control I’d like to organize them in nice little labelled boxes Neatly tucked away unless I say otherwise I hate not being in control I hate that they so easily engulf…

Sunshine Blogger Award

I’ve had this in my draft for sooo long, I suppose on the day of my 101 followers celebration🍾 it deserves to be released. Receiving these awards simply never gets old, as I have the very same reaction since the first one I got weeks into starting this blog. Each day it continues to baffle…